Why on earth am I doing this?

Do you ever question what you are doing? How you are spending your life? Yeah, me too. As a matter of fact, those questions flashed through my mind this morning at 4:30. Yes, it does come twice a day. I was getting ready for work, one of the two jobs I hold, which enables me to pay my enormous school bill. As I looked in the mirror at the rather terrifying figure staring back at me, I wondered if it was all worth it. I'm sitting here thinking the very same thing. I'm in a class that is painfully boring, and I can feel my brain melting out of my skull. In the name of what? What strange desire prompts me to subject myself to stress, boredom, and utter frustration. Do I have a lust for self-destruction? A bizarre wish to torture myself? No, not that I know of. It is all in the name of education. Education. Physically revealed by a 81/2 by 11 inch piece of paper. WHAT???!!!! I am killing myself for that? Yes. I am. And here sitting on this less-than-comfortable chair praying for the class to end, I realize why I am putting myself through this. One word. Investment. I am investing time, money, and more time now to secure my future. Years from now, when I look back on my schooling, I will be thankful that I worked hard and studied hard. Now I just have to maintain a positive attitude for the next...THREE YEARS??? THREE YEARS??? I think this is going to be harder than I thought....